I wish my girlfriend would realize how great she is for once and just stop sweating the small stuff and be happy.
I really do wish I was more creative and artsy. I think that stuff is cool.
Ever since I got this Macbook I’ve had a hard time going to bed early. I really love this thing. It’s rekindled my love for computing.
Lol I’m dating a girl with pierced nipples I win.
Went out and did some shooting with Selden the other day. I really enjoyed doing that with her. And I also got a few photos that I really like.
I have a great girl.
Selden I know you wanted a note from me and I’m sorry I didn’t write one. Really, I just forgot and I did feel bad when I remembered that I forgot.
But it probably worked out in your favor because I can get my thoughts out much more clearly with a keyboard.
You’re “leaving” tomorrow. I’m so glad for and so excited for you and so excited to come visit you in Atlanta.
But I’m so, so scared you’ll find someone new. I really am. I’m so afraid that someone else will just make you a bit happier than me and make you laugh just a bit more. I really want to continue dating you Selden, for as long as I can. We’ve been dating for 2 years and that is so nuts to me. How did we even do that? Seriously it doesn’t even feel like it’s been that long. (Time flies when you’re having fun hehe)
When I left today I was crying. Then I stopped. Then I started again. And stopped. And again, I cried some more. I don’t ever cry. You know that. But man I haven’t cried like that in so long. I can’t even remember the last time. I’m going to miss you so much. It really just finally hit me tonight that you’re going to be “gone” (only 45 minutes away but damn). I’m just afraid of all the other much better looking guys that you’ll be surrounded by. And don’t even act like guys don’t like you because you know people are always hitting on you and saying things and just lame I hate it.
You’re the best girl in the whole wide world. You don’t see it, but you are. You’re so sweet and you’re so goofy and funny and I just love you. I can’t believe I’m typing all this I feel so dumb. You know how I feel about this stuff but I just need to get it out and I really like typing soo0o0o.
You’re really the best. I hate you and you bug the shit out of me sometimes. But really, I love you. I do. I love being with you and I love talking to you and I just really enjoy you. I’m so comfortable around you and I just like being with you. Unless you’re feeling grouchy and just woke up or something god I hate when you get like that.
Your letter was so sweet. I loved the doodle and I’m sorry I can’t doodle on here.
I’m just so sad to see you go but so excited for you at the same time.
I really want to start bettering myself now, now that I’m seeing you go do something with your life. It’s about time I did that. I want to be the best person I can be, for you. I just want you and I want to make you happy and I want to be with your family and I just really want you.
This is weird. I don’t do this normally. I think I’m running out of things to say. My brain is drained of all the things I was thinking on the way home.
Please, pleasssssee, don’t find someone else. Please don’t forget about me. Please don’t go party and cheat on me. I can’t leave you and I don’t want to date someone that cheated on me. I know it’s wrong of me to think you’re going to do that and it makes you think I don’t trust you but really, I’m so afraid of that. And it’s not because I don’t trust you, I’m just scared of someone else having you. You’re mine.
I think I’m done. Next time I want you to type my letter because you have terrible handwriting and on one line I actually thought you said “I know for sure is that I don’t want to love you” when it actually said lose you. I had to read it like 4 times to understand what you actually meant.
All in all, I love you and we’re going to make this college thing work. No matter what. We’ve made it work for 2 years, I think we can keep going.